I have not written this blog for a long time.
Recently, I hope, the relationship with older two daughters are not bad.
But youngest daughter has not contacted with me at all.
I have to keep trying to work out with it.
Our life in Canberra is quiet and calm but we are still in a crisis.
My husband's job is not going very well and he hopes to go back to New Zealand.
I have my menopause and had a blood test to try to female hormone.
Everything looks fuzzy to me now. I am too lose, not have tense any more.
It seems like that I don't have any important things. Everything looks like just happen to somebody else, not to me.
I don't really want to meet people, not sad, not lonely. I am very fine to been myself, no I need my husband. He is an only important person to me right now.
I don't want miss him. Except it I am fine.
Recently I totally gave up to work in a medical field. I don't want to do any effort to be a nurse. But I have no idea that how to be a retail worker in a shop, not in a super market.
I met Joan the other day in a pretty shop (selling soap or incense) and left my name and contact number because I really like these kind of shops.
I am thinking about quitting Salvos because I feel that I just keep doing it without any purpose. I should have a purpose that is socialize.
However I now feel I don't need social activity. I just want to been quiet.
I hope my new doctor will find my problem and rescue me from this dull days.
