I just read my latest post and recognized that my writing has not improved at all.
After I left Canberra I stopped to study English but I had had a little ambitious with me till recent as I had TOEIC test.
However very recent I lost all my passion for everything again as same as last summer.
I think one of the causes is the stress of this unstable life situation.
We mostly found out our next stage clearly but what will happen after the next?
I envy others who have their own places, houses, gardens and stable life that we could not expect so far.
Another stress is the not enough chatting with my husband.
He is the kind of person who does not express much ones thought to others.
So it is difficult to see what he is thinking for and it takes ages to bring it out from him.
And most of the time it happens when he really upsets, he finally starts to say loud.
I am a very socialized person and could never patient for so long.
So I am always struggle with my irritation.
It effects not only my mental rather affects my body.
How can I live with that? I would not alive longer.

Guess, I need to find out how to enjoy my life every day.
I need to thank any small happiness for every moment.

It is going to be the time to ready dinner for my husband.
I will write some more later.