It is like my life

I had been knitting a scurf for my daughter's birthday since about two weeks ago.
It had almost done last night, but I had not been happy about the shape.
However I could not stop to knit it because it was quite a big project for a beginner.
On the other hand, I was also looking forward to complete it.
because I could not see the whole shape until I would finished the cast off.
My husband said "Funny looking" and I thought same thing too.
But I said "It will be like this." with showed him the piece of cast off part.

I was thinking for a while, then suddenly decided to unfold it!
After that I became to cannot sleep, because the unfolding was as same as difficult with knit it.
I finally gave it up and went to sleep.

Last night we argued a bit about our future, and I realized that it was one of the stresses for me so far.
This morning, I thought "Unfolded complicated knitting" was like my present life.
Now we are planning a change, no, not "we" , he is planning it.
He is the main income person(?) for two of us, so his decision would be quite influent to our life. 
So he does not consider about my situation much.
However although English was not my first language, I finally got present part time job, and many friends from the group that I have joined, in this small town.
It means I feel that I have built a stable life compare to when I was in the big city before with poor English. I feel that I have done quite well here.
If we moved to next place, I would be miss everything, I feel.

But he says that I can gain lowest wedge, so my quitting would not be a big problem.
I might be getting old and do not like a change any more.
I might have to work out harder later.
Now I have lived very comfortably in this small town, so I have totally no idea what can I do at different place.
I was not like this before, and I feel I missed my enthusiasm. It is not good.