I AM Happy

I am happy whatever!
As I said, I was grumpy the other day, not grumpy, I might lost my confidence.
However this time I got it back very quick, also my younger sister's message helped my recovering a lot.
The reason which I lost my confidence was the phone call that I made with my new friend. 
I told too much my personally things to her about my family. She is a mental health nurse, so I know these kind of person likes investigate others life histories.
And they are good at bring out stories from others, so I talked too much.

She has got everything that I want to have, especially English skills. So I absolutely felt jealous and I had forgotten about the view from her. I was talking about only my things and I had not realised that she also felt jealous with me.( I was not sure.) 
Anyway, I did not need to compare her to me at all. As I said her and my life are totally different. I actually have got everything that she wants to have, so we are same. I was negative so I thought she was much happier than me. 

I stopped to be negative and I stopped to compare about myself to others. I should have my own pace (speed?) and I have my own life, then it should be happy. I should not lose my confidence. It is sometimes difficult.
However at least I need to try to put me in happiness always. (Probably my expression is strange.)
And recently I found a tip of the hint for being happy. ( I am sure this sentence is also strange.)
It is 1:15am. now, but I do not sleepy and I have still enjoyed English writing.