I feel bad

I was not bad this afternoon. As the duty manager said, I went to Migrant Centre and talked to them.
At first I should explain about the duty manager. As my new friend said, I called the hospital and asked about a position for the volunteer interpreter. I thought I can work as a interpreter quickly without any extra skills.
The manager said that I need to send my CV to let her know my detail. My CV is a bit old ; does not have current situation. So I asked my referee to my boss.
Then the manager said that another option is visit Migrant Centre in the town because they have an information for the training.  
I did not want to go to Migrant Centre because I did not want to people think about me a new migrant.
However the weather became nicer in afternoon, so I changed my mind and went there to try to get some new information.
As I thought they thought I am a new migrant and try to introduce me some English course or home tutor. I think I seemed a bit grumpy person.
Because I have done many English courses and I have already had English tutors, I had really done a lot of courses to improving my English. But I have realised study only "ON THE DESK" does not work well.
I have always looked for the opportunities for a lot of conversations.
Then I told them about that, they understood me and introduced a craft group. They said that they have a lot of conversation in the group. But, to me it sounded not very good because of all of them are new migrant.
I really really want to talk with native English speakers.
I have not use to talk with people in English and I am still shy to make mistakes.
However I like talk with others, work in a group and help people.

In the evening I phoned new friend and talked too much about myself. I think some of my talking were like a complaining. I was really bad. Finally she made an excuse ; I was pretty sure it was excuse, and finished the phone call.
After that I felt bad to myself and I realised I was very grumpy today because the people in Migrant centre treated me like a new migrant.
I might be new migrant. When people will treat me not as a foreigner? I was sad.
But it was not a reason I made complaining to new friend. So I am not going to call her for a while.