Old Friends

I wanted to continue more sawing, but why New Zealand's lights are so dark?
I could not see the moving of my needle any more after sunset, then I had to give it up.
Instead, I called to my old Japanese friend who I have known since I was 18.
Her name is Keiko and I call her "Kei-chan"
Last night, I also called to my another old friend.(Hina)
When I first met her, her daughter was 3 or 4, but now the daughter is 15.
I was so glad about Hina's daughter finally started to talk. She lost her word since she was small. (She can talk but she did not want to talk with anybody else for a long time.)
They both had stroke and nearly died.

Today I was thinking about my relatives who were my uncles.
My uncle father side, named Satoshi. And another uncle mother side named Masatoshi. I just realised their names were similar.
They were very kind to me, so different from my mum and dad.
My mother and father were always fighting so our family did not laugh often.
And my younger sister was six years difference from me, so we did not talk each other in that days because she was at age 1 to 7 or 8.
I was a teenager and how we could talk about common interest...she was too young.

I liked talk with my grandparents and uncle in mother side.
My grand parents and my uncle lived close and they were happy family. It helped me. My mother, my sister and I visited them every summer or New year.
My grand father called me "Doyagai-no-Maayan" that meant Maayan in the slum.
And who could imagine the small Maayan would moved to New Zealand and lived with American husband later!?
Now they (My grand parents, mother and uncle) have slept in same grave.

Anyway, Kei-chan was so surprised about me to live in NZ. 
I had believed that I was in a middle class, but when I think about myself, I was always poor. I did not graduated university. I did not have any particular skills until I entered to a nursing school when I was 39.
I was silly and always got lost in my life and had completely no money unless just feed.
However the lower level people in Osaka, they have warm hearts and friendly.
Although we have not seen each other for an ages, once we start to talk, we can share our feeling easy and it is not be felt long time.. xxx (I cannot express correctly.)

Kei-chan said "You become happier and happier."
Tonight I was also thinking about my life since I was young. I did any kind of job even though I felt embarrass to myself. Otherwise I could not feed my children.
I worked just for alive.
My daughters do not know about the detail, but that is fine because it was my fault.
Kei-chan also said "You had always chosen wrong people and struggled for not even money but also mentally. But now, how did you find such a nice person!? I am glad." 
I said "Maybe I am getting old and became much calm..."

I will likely find a better feeling later that a peaceful and tranquillity mind.