This year will be finished soon. (My English does not improve much..)
Yesterday I thought my life is quite long. When I was on the boat, I was looking the far land then I immediately remembered old days that I was 18 or 19.
I was already a mum at my 20s'. I felt I was very old.
Nowadays 20s' girls are very young. If I were more clever or considerable person, I would not get married at such a young age.
I could enjoy my own life, I could do much more things that I wanted to do.
I feel I wasted many years for terrible marriage, not for kids.
My kids are my treasure from God even though they have never thought so.
How about Me, for my parents, especially father? We had not seen each other.
How was mum? I really feel I had not talked with her at all.
I wanted to talk about more things with her, about her life, hobbies, love, or more.
I feel it is time to forgive my parents, because I am old enough.
When I go to Japan, I am going to go mum's grave with my sister.
It must be beautiful time of the year in April.
And fortunately my grand parents and ankle are sleep in same place with my mum.
How is dad? I sent a Christmas card to for him but no reply so far. I am just started to worrier about him a bit. He is 79 now.
Anyway, I am still not well. I have unhappy stomach, tongue of course, and fatigue.
I know I need some exercise but I cannot, too tired.
I sometimes feel better, just few times. I hope it causes from menopause.
Next year I will try harder to restore our family bond... I will...
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