How Happy

In this World, there are many lonely and poor people there.
The other day my friend, Aya said that when she is down she tries to help people instead be helped.
Till now I have been helped from many people, so from now I am going to try to help others.
I had always looked for benefits from others, and I am very happy now, but this happiness has built from other's efforts, I think.
I also made many people sad and my ways of making people sad were quite cruel.
I do not know where I learned it from.
Others around me also hurt me cruelly?  but they were probably not on purpose.
I was just unlucky.
I think it is time to consider how to communicate better with people who are important for me.
I was before keen to coop with people who were not important to me. They sometimes tried to take something from me, but I never realized that.
Some people who really thought about me kindly, tried me to realized how important myself is. But I did not understand it.
I just followed bad people. It was sometimes fun but I also lost many things.
Now they were all gone and I will not close them.
Sometimes I remember about them and try to find them from old days, but it is stupid! If I did it, I would miss all my important things again.
How to stand firmly. I cannot drift any more because now I have many important things which I should not miss.
It is time to think.
How do I make my life better and how do I protect my significant others.
What is the most important thing in my life?
Recently I just found a tip of them and have to try to not miss it.