A Change

I feel a change.
I will be finish my on-line course soon, I stopped my English lessons with John, Zela started to teach again and my darling finally applied to the citizen-ship.
The happiest thing is that I got use to talk with people in English recently.
I will go to a next step with my darling in 2011. How exciting!
(However I still need Zela's help to get more confidence for the talking.)

Today my darling said that his life travelling has not done yet. And I felt I am glad to do it with him. We are not alone any more.
The other day he said "I need a sail. I cannot go without a sail." I was thinking  his engine is big enough for him to sail alone. But it was not. It means he also changed a lot. He is not a single-hand sailor of his life any more. I am so glad.

I really think we are now in a harmony.
I do not know what was wrong before. Many causes made us mad.
But we worked out hardly. (I feel THANKS to Aya!)
If Aya did not say anything about us, our relationship would not be rebuilt.
However I enjoyed live my own very much, although it was only for five months.
It was a significant experience in my life.
Because I once completely gave up to belong any guys. And it was actually comfortable. I felt free although I lost my security.
If I were in Japan, I could not live alone, however in New Zealand I could have a hope that was from the government, unemployed benefit.
So I still had a chance to try to something in NZ.
In Japan I had no chance. That feeling was awful.

Now, our boat will be start to a new bon-voyage.  
I am sure we will have arguments sometimes, however we will be coop with them much quicker.Because we can feel we respect each other. I had never felt it before with my previous husbands. They were so unreliable however it was probably my fault. I made them unreliable.

Health note;
I still have strange feeling on my tongue. (Zala said "If you suffer under a poison, try to have more poison.") I said to her "I will try to have more water first." She also introduced me "Homoeopathy" . The doctors make us our own liquid, we drop it in our tongue, it works very well like a magic!!   
If everything will not help, I have to try them.

After I played tennis, my left leg got worse. I hope swim did not be a cause.
After the swim, my skin infection got worse again. (I might have to refuse the swim next week. My darling said "Protect yourself." and it is very important in NZ. Nobody protect me.)

Except above I do not have any problem so far.