Thanksgiving

Today we had Canadian Thanks Giving at our friend's house.
My darling made Stuffed Turkey and it was delicious!

We stayed there for TEN hours! I am exhausted. I feel I am getting old.
My darling is quite healthy so he can afford to these kind of parties. But I cannot afford any more. I want to go to bed until 10pm.
The other day I talked with my friend on the phone until 12:30am. and after three days I had been exhausted. Before that I did same thing for five or six hours, and  I was so tired after a week. I will try to not do that...

My daughters look OK so far. I was disappointed to myself about I gave a presser to my middle. (about marriage and grandchild) She might will not reply to me this time. 
She said eldest looks OK, so I am going to believe it.
My youngest, she said she is OK, but her mother in law is not good. She said she is stuck. I asked it might from her cancer (I did not say "cancer") and I said I hope she will get well. She is younger than me.
So now I have many people to pray before go to sleep every day.
Emiko, My Emi, Mika and Manami, my sister, Aya, the mother in law and my lovely darling.

I need to think of them in this Thanks Giving day. I am here because of them, they have been helping me emotionally a lot, will be help physically sometimes.
I believe God. We are the children of God. He always looks after us from the heaven. But I cannot ask something to him, I just pray instead.
And I am sure my pray will be done even any result will be happen.

The other day my sister said about my daughters "They have their own life, so you can enjoy your own life too." I was impressed. I can have my own life.
I am always thinking that my happiness does not exist without my daughters happiness. After I missed them I realised how do I love them.
I did not give them much love before. I am so awkward.
Pray for them is easier way for me. I do not have right, enough words for them except I give them hugs. (Unfortunately in Japan we do not have hug culture.)
I wanted to do hugs a lot more if I could.

It is time to go to bed. I will pray for them tonight too. Thanks.